Numb

Date: October 15th, 2021

I used to have a red boombox in my room that I would bounce between 101.1 KUFO and 105.1 The Buzz on. (those are radio stations that you can listen to with your ears.)

The Buzz had a lot of bops that I still listen to to this day, and one of them they played all the time was "Numb" by Linkin Park.

As soon as those opening notes hit, I knew it was time to feel some angst. Linkin Park was always good for that. Butthurt about the girl I had a crush on since 4th grade wanting to felate peters her whole life? Just listen to angsty love songs from the early 2000s and stare out the window at all the trees in that bullshit forest I spent most of my life isolated in.

When it comes to angst, nobody did it better than Linkin Park. I mean, the lead singer killed himself. That's pretty angsty. It's actually about as angsty as it gets. And plus, this song was totally written for middle schoolers who were going through some non-problems in between stints on various RP message boards.

I'm tired of being what you want me to be... Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface. I don't know what you're expecting of me: put under the pressure of walking in your shoes.

Oh come on, man. That's not so bad. I'm assuming this song is about parents wanting the lead singer, who is 12, to follow in their footsteps and become a janitor or whatever to carry on the family legacy. But my guy, you don't gotta do that. Pressure of walking in their shoes? Just buy new shoes and walk wherever you want in 'em. I hear Betty Lou's got a new pair herself.

Every step that I take is another mistake to you.

It sounds like you live in an abusive home, Chester. Maybe you should move out of your parent's house considering you wrote this song when you were like 30.

The song just bellows out with anger and rage that his parents want him to amount to something and all he wants to do is drink cough syrup and play the Perfect Dark Combat Simulator. He feels imprisoned, clearly. It's so sad. About as sad as openly having emotions in a public setting. Get over yourself, Chester. Have a Cheetoh and cheat on your wife by getting fucked by a cheetah. Live a little. Christ.

...yeah, I dunno. There's not a lot to say here. Have some Linkin Park wallpapers.