Date: September 2nd, 2021

It's kind of a fucked up irony that I was already planning on putting Daffney into this little HOF section of mine before what happened to her. So like, I wanna try to keep it positive and stuff but holy shit this really sucks.

Daffney was briefly in a Smarkitude takeover special for a quick bit. I wanted to get her in more episodes since she was so cool and I was a big fan (especially in TNA) but I just hadn't gotten to it yet, unfortunately. I wish I had represented her more while she was still here, especially with what she meant to me growing up.

Like, I wrote about how Ashley Massaro was one of my favs growing up, and Daffney was no different. Her "goth but spunky" gimmick was like, holy fuck. She was so cool. She was my wallpaper on my PSP for a while, I think we were friends on MySpace back in the day. If she was on MySpace I totally added her, no doubt. My memory is fried though so I don't remember.

Like, Daffney made me realize that the way I am is actually super cool and it's alright to be dark but peppy and weird. She really had a big influence on me since I was a teenager when she hit on Impact. It was like, the perfect time for me to bump into her when there wasn't a lot of girls who I could relate to on TV. It really didn't register that she's gone until I started writing this out. This really sucks.

I'm not usually at a loss for words and public figurey deaths don't usually fuck me up that much, but like Daffney, Ashley, Chyna. Those ones hit me because they all really meant a lot to me and I guess it never occurred to me that I'd outlive anyone I looked up to, I guess. It's incredibly sad. And part of me just thinks like... fuck. Why? Why not just push through the shit and try to see what the next day brings? Like, I remember she took a hiatus from TNA for a while and then popped back up for like one match and the fans were chanting for her but TNA didn't give her the respect she deserved, and that really sucks too. Politics are a bitch, but you can't base your own self worth on the blindness of the corporations that sign your paychecks.

I loved the Shark Girl gimmick, too. I actually really wanted to get a replica Shark Girl mask back in the day. I dunno. I don't really have any way of making this anything more than me saying "Fuck. This sucks." on repeat.

I know everyone thinks that the answer to this is to post the phone number to the suicide hotline and be like "reach out!" But no. Everyone who is going through this kind of shit knows that the suicide hotline exists. What people need is to feel supported and loved before they start showing signs that they want to leave this world and move onto the next one.

Wherever Daffney is now, I'm sure she's much happier than she was while she was here. It still sucks because I really thought at some point we might see her crop up in AEW or Impact or something doing legends appearances or something. Like, I really thought that. I was looking forward to it, honestly. I thought about her a lot and wished she hadn't disappeared from wrestling so hard.

I used to make her in wrestling games, too. I played as her all the time. She was just so cool.

I honesly don't know what to say here that I feel would do justice to how much of an impact she had on me growing up. I'm just sad.